I continue my most bitter days, though resigned to the Will of God. My always lovable Jesus, if He makes Himself seen, is always afflicted and taciturn; it seems He no longer wants to pay attention to me in anything. This morning, making Himself seen, He put two earrings on my ears — so shining as to look like two suns. Then He told me: "My beloved daughter, for one who is all intent on listening to Me, My Word is sun, which not only delights the hearing, but nourishes the mind and satiates the heart with Me and with My Love. Ah! they don’t want to understand that all My intent is to have all of you intent within Me, without paying attention to anything else. Look at her (pointing at someone), with her way of scrutinizing everything – she pays attention to everything, she is affected by everything, up to the excesses — and even in holy things. This is nothing but a living outside of Me, and one who lives outside of Me, by necessity feels herself very much. She thinks she does honor to Me, but it is the opposite."